I am glad I am showing off my favorite companions today. I needed that! It’s a mishmash but I love them all, especially the human ones!
LOVE. To me it represents everything. I blog about what I love, so every post represents love. This post represents unadulterated love with the 2 people whom I love more than anything in the entire universe. And what do they love? Their puppy. And he loves them. Of course I know they love me too, but that isn’t a choice, really. If they need a moment, they hug Juni. Soft and fun, always up for a kiss and a hug. Mind you, Juni could have been a better subject, he was very lick-y and squirm-y. But that is ok, the love still shines though the minor focus issues. 😉
Here stands my artistic representation of my new resolve. It’s red leaf lettuce. Yup. The very same lettuce I buy because I like it. But somehow it rarely gets eaten by me. The wildlife in my backyard get some really gourmet treats thrown their way. I can’t buy food at the store in advance. Who knows what I might like to eat in the future? I only know what I want to eat right when I want to eat it, and for the last few years it has not been very healthy. My attitude recently has been one of cutting off my nose to spite my face. I used to be pretty healthy, but then went through some un-pleasantries in my life. I find that my current attitude of “eat whatever you want”, “do whatever you want”, everything will be ok, really isn’t working for me. By eating “whatever” I mean eating really bad food. In all actuality, “whatever” can also mean really good food, or a little bad food in MODERATION every once in a while. My “whatever” attitude is not working. It is just making me tired, chubby, cluttered, stressed and unhappy. The “whatever” attitude is complicating not soothing. One hurdle I have is that I associate heathy with vanity. If I look back on when I was thin (which I tried really hard to be, and was for a very short time, although time enough to almost ruin my life) it feels like it was a direct path to the most miserable time in my life. I find my current blubber is a very comfortable safety suit that I really do enjoy; somehow I almost cherish it like a badge. But as I stated before, it isn’t really working. I am trying to find out what I REALLY want and REALLY need. I don’t want to be “thin” or skinny. That is a fact. Being thin was so not fun at all. I was cold and hungry and attracted a shallow, vain, materialistic & really, really mean person into my life, that I was too naïve to get rid of. Well, I did the hard work and the mean one is history. I am working on understanding that being healthy is being good to myself. I want to frolic joyously through the fields taking photos. I want to be healthy not only literally by eating well and taking care of myself, but I want to be healthy in my heart and soul and mind by getting rid of all that I engage in that is unhealthy. In 2013 (and forever) I am resolved to be kind in my words and thoughts to myself and others. I want to have healthy relationships with kind and loving people who treat me and themselves (and our world) with kindness, respect, love, and compassion. I want to focus on being grounded and grateful. I am not a victim of anything, and I certainly refuse to be my own worst enemy. From here on out I no longer associate “health” with vanity, but love and light. We create our own reality, and I believe I am ready for the reality I want, a good, positive, healthy one. I want a reality that is uncluttered, whole and pure. Beautiful. In a good way.
Most things that are foreign to one person are not foreign to another. The only thing I could think of that is truly foreign to everyone is a foreign object in the eye. No one likes that. But I thought that might be a painful thing to photograph, with possibilities of a trip to the ER. The only country I have visited is Canada. I love Canada, but it does not seem foreign. Well, Quebec would, since they speak French, but I haven’t been to that part.
So I decided to make this entry in homage to my dear friend Cee, whom I greatly admire!
Cee LOVES travelling, and is returning to India (her favorite place in the world) in a few days for a month-long visit. In my opinion Cee is very brave and very contiguously appreciating of so many cultures. She goes wherever she wants, accomplishes whatever she wants, and has overcome many trying times. And everything she does is full of love and light and purpose. This photo is of a box she owns from India. Last night we looked at photos from her previous trips. The beauty there is just amazing. The intricate details and show of devotion to many things is so exciting and wonderful. Then we enjoyed a fantastic dinner at a local Indian restaurant. Cee is a blond-haired, blued eyed Caucasian woman. She recently won a prize at an Indian festival for dancing! They even interviewed her for Indian TV. The television crew were very impressed she embraced their culture and could correctly pronounce their words. She has opened my eyes to a far away land that seems thrilling (yet intimidating to me) to visit. I am working on being braver in my life. It isn’t easy. My silly anxiety creates fear of a lot of things that I know are unfounded, and down right excuses, to leave my comfort zone. I hope to be brave like my dear friend Cee and overcome these fears that I let hold me back. But for today, I celebrate Cee, and dream of all things Foreign, except for a sharp thing in my eye.
I have enjoyed learning more about compassionate thinking and want to share this very beautiful and cool learning experience (that is free! woo!)! It is a seven week course on Monday evenings, one hour each. Tonight was week two, but it’s easy to catch up!
You can sign up for next week, view last week, and learn more about it here: http://live.soundstrue.com/compassionatebrain/event.php
And for some compassionate viewing pleasure, two photos of my sweet little girl Perl: